Goodbye, Twenty-Sixteen

Twenty-Sixteen was draining, tough, suffocating and exhuasting.

I made a whole bunch of mistakes that defeated me this year and i didn’t know how to forgive myself, i learnt that happiness is temporary but joy last a little while more than temporary. In twenty-fifteen i learnt to let go and move on but in twenty-sixteen i fell right back into square one. It was so hard to let go of the hatred, anger and frustation deep down inside. I hate myself and i still do.

> Final year project (‘Lu:sid/)
Crazy bunch of team mates (Denzil, Chloe, Sharlene) that deal with my shit for the first semester of the year, lots of disagreement along the way but i’m very glad we managed to finish ‘Lu:sid/

> Stepping down DMIT Club (Public Relation Head/GL Trainer)
GL Training was really fun with my fellow trainers Cedric, who called me a milion time to wake me up in the morning so i wouldn’t be late and also Reynard who dealed with my shit. I think both of them had a fair share of dealing with my shit and also tolerating my nonsense and also my fellow GL(s) who made us vvvvvv proud!

> Bernard’s commissioning (OCS Infantry)
God damn it, i was so glad it was ovvvvvver for him and also me! i don’t have much to say about this, it was tough, crazy but also a good experience at the same time,  i’m a vvvvvv proud girlfriend! and yes, he brought me along as his date for commission ball! (who else can he bring right? hahah jk.)

> Twenty-First birthday celebration 
Extremely blessed! It was crazy, fun, lots of love and also lots of money spent $$$$

> Producing Internship (1-)
Internship is crazy but also really fun (with the right people, right crew) so far so good, i guess it’s “welcome to the real world” and honestly, the real production world is craaaaaazy but also really fullfilling, achivement unlock!! and best part, my batch of fellow interns are (y) (y) (y)

On a good note, i only fainted twice this year but meh, had a really bad stomach flu (i was bedridden for three days, the only three places i was at was the doctors, my room, the toilet to puke) conjunctivitis and also the usual fever/flu blah blah blah. Health has been really bad this year too.

I hope twenty-seventeen would be a better year with me making better choices but well, there is only so much you can do without losing yourself right ?




Happily twenty-one

Celebrated my twenty-first birthday in advance on the 27th August just a week back after much consideration i cancelled the thought of having it at a hotel and had mine at SAF Treehouse Villa, Elok 12A. The place was amazing and also it’s a 10 to 15 minutes walk to Changi Village. There were only 14 villas so credits and thanks to Bernard’s sister’s boyfriend Aloysius who helped me to ballot and booked the place and even came to fetch and drove me to the location to check in (brother-in-law goals y’all). We had the villa for four days three nights (26 August – 29 August) for the price $390 which was really worth it and the villa was a lot bigger than i’ve expected, there were two bed rooms, two toilets (one downstairs and one upstairs), outdoor smoking area, living hall + open kitchen kinda concept and also bbq pit. Oh they provide free wifi, cable tv(s) and also some essential bbq stuff (that i didn’t use at all), cons : only one parking lot for one villa and also the check-out timing was at 10am which was mehhhh.

We checked in at approx three in the afternoon, had our lunch and waited for my red mart delivery + the boys (Dexter, John) to come with my helium tank and shortly my mum came afterwards and brought us out of dinner at Changi Village.
I guess my mum and me went slightly crazy and we were constantly worried about not having enough drinks/food so we ordered quite bit of stuff. Went back and the boys stayed up and prepared my birthday table (god damn it, thank god for them. this is friends 4 ever)  my birthday table credits goes to Dexter, John, Xiang Rong and the boyf hue hue.
The theme of my birthday was Happily Twenty-First, Colour theme was Pink, White and Gold!

Day 2.

Woke up, prepared and went to Changi village with the boyf to have our brunch and went over to whitesands to collect my cupcakes and macarons !!! i forgot to take pictures of the macarons and the cupcakes because i was too excited ??? (sobs) but i got them from thecakewaltz and stole the pictures from their instagram too so credits to them!
> Cupcakes : Cookiebutter x Redvelvet x Salted Caramel
> Macarons : Earlgrey x Redvelvet x Salted Caramel

Went back and realised that my parents were there already and whoop prepared for the celebration at night. It was quite intense because there were so many people and i couldn’t talk to everyone (i tried i swear) but it was really hard with everyone around.

My first guest who arrived was Mr Lai (HAHAHAH) he was the first person to came and felt uncomfortable and kept asking if there’s anything he can helped with, thank u wen pang u have been a great help and also thank u for rushing down despite that u had something on!
and after that Bernard’s sister(s) and his older sister’s boyf came and i think the dda fags came and after that i forgot. it was so so so hectic but thank you everyone who came and the presents and all the love.
now the fact that i’m documenting this down in my wordpress i feel stupid because i didn’t take pictures of all the food ????? but

> Birthday Cake, Cakerysg
> Drinks Snacks, Redmart
> Catering, Stamford Catering
> Cupcakes & Macarons, Thecakewaltz
> Brownies and Eclairs, J&C Bakery 
> Churros, Chulop! 

Thank you everyone who came down to celebrate my 21st with me, thank you for the surprise that my parents had planned with dexter and also the video montage that everyone had helped dexter in. I am greatly utterly blessed and loved.
(Pictures are in random order and i don’t have all the pictures with me so :-()
Credits to Dexter, Zul and Chap for the pictures! (Ps/ i designed the invitation myself)

I was honestly tired and very hungry that i started eating the cupcakes on my birthday table. help i think i’m the most unglam birthday girl ever and my Happily 21st cake topper is from circussg !

Circussg on Carousell : x Instagram :

Day 2 ended with love, blessing, lots of shots and lots of puke.


Day 3 ended with lots of beer, lots of puke and also a good talk with Nat while the boys crash!

Photo Booth images !

Dylan had also kindly sponsored me Focalbooth’s Photo Booth service, after much discussion with him i decided on the gold background and the 3 images photostrip!

Focal booth is a company that provides Photo Booth service, it’s a self-service Photo Booth which provides photo printer / touch screen monitor / the full set up / props. It was great because there was something for my guest to do and i really like taking pictures and at least there’s something for my guest to bring home to remember and since it was a self-service Photo Booth there’s no photographer which is way less awkward!!! you can also re-take ur un-prepared pictures within five seconds till the next picture and they also provides live updates (live feed) on their Facebook and also the photostrips HD images and  the HD individual pictures online which is a bonus!

 Amanda’s Happily-Twentyfirst (Photostrips) on Focal Booth
Amanda’s Happily-Twentyfirst (Individual Images) on Focal Booth
Focal Booth :  & Watched Productions :

Thank you everyone who wish/celebrated my twenty-first.
Here comes adult hood

Fail Vlog ? Istana Woods ?

How to go to Istana Woodneuk ? :
> Take any bus (Bus 7, 75, 77, 105, 106, 123, 174, 564, 625) that alights you at Opp Peirce Road  (11209)
> Walk towards the direction of the shelter 
> There are several gaps as you walk along the shelter, attend the first gap you see just a few steps away from the first barrier
> As you enter you will notice this trail with a rope at the right side, walk up the trail with the help of the rocks that’s on the ground and of course the rope !
> After roughly five minutes, you will reach a path that diverge into two ways, walk along the right path and you will notice Istana Woods


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“The man is warm and dead. My soul is cold and alive Thus we can never be together, and can only stare at each other from spirit heavens, forever. “

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Beautifully collapsing interior

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And look who came home with a cut + bruise

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When there’s an #ootd opportunity ….. take it

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So … me and dexter sort of collarborated and did a vlog together, but due to technical difficulties the vlog was incomplete !

˅ My vlog ˅

and also watch dexter’s vlog

˅ Dexter’s vlog ˅